Thats me, the guy who cares

Yeah, thats me, the guy who cares. What i mean by this? Well, you know that kind of ppl who want to be there for other ppl? Ok, im not like them. Hahaha. No, im not here for all kind of ppl coz i would get crazy if i would be here for everyone, right? Im talking about some ppl  and being there for them. Guess this is my biggest problem if i can say that that is a problem. Really dont know how i start to care about some ppl that much. I was never like this before. It is only fair to say that that austrian girl have something to do it with it. Before i met her i was how to say? Living in my own world? Not giving a shit for anything? Yeah that could be true. So what changed since i met her? A lot my son, a lot. I can honestly say i felt love for that girl. That was happy time in my life, really. Am i happy now? No, im not. I wont lie it have something to do it coz of her, but i guess it is my own fault too. Like in the past, way bedore i met her i was like that too. Nerve who cares about others. You know what hapened? I get hurt big time. Yeah. Then i put my armor and didnt allow anyone near me. What that austrian girl did to me? She smashed my armor. True story. I didnt have any defence againt her. Guess this is what love do to a person. Ok i need to be fair and say that she did much for me, she made me a better person for sure. I need to say thank you for that, i appreciate everything you did for me girl, really. So why im sad and empty now? That is a good question. Honestly in one part coz i wanted too much too fast. Yeah that could be a part of answer and other part could be that i fall to the ground again. I mean i get dissapointed in ppl. Im not talking only about austrian girl now even she dissapointed me in a way but that is something about i will talk with her, im talking about how ppl are bastards. Yeah i said it, ppl are bastards. You give them yourself and they take advantage of you. So i have a question for all of you who will read this, am i the bad person coz im angry at ppl after i helped them and they didnt even pretend to appreciate my help? Should i put my armor again and be that selfish asshole that i was? One thing is for sure, some ppl will always have my help no matter what. For them i will be strong coz they deserve me, others, to tell you the truth im starting to have a i dont give a fuck atitude for them. Pis